First one done, 30 day to go!
I was putting this run away to the darkest corner and really was fearing it. I dont understand what I was so scared about, no idea. Maybe I was unsure if I would really do this and not give up like I always did before. But I knew that I have to do this! For myself, finally!
But as always, I loved the feeling when I was running! So I guess the joke was on me :D…
It felt so good and all I could think was “I’M DOING THIS!!” 🙂
This month is huge thing for me, it’s about me finding who I am better, to believe in myself, conquer my fears, believe that I can, find positive things to think about myself, love myself, be proud of myself, be healthier and the list goes on.
To be honest it’s also about looking better and feeling good about how I look. I want to be able to look in the mirror and say to myself that “You look good!”. I’ve always had hard time to except myself and how I look. I someway thought that I’m beautiful and look nice but most of the time I felt ugly, boyish, that I don’t belong at all. So I wish that would change, at last.
I dont want to be skinny, I want to be healthy, fit and little muscular. I love that feeling and look when I have some muscles that really show but I also love to look like a woman with some curves. I love that I have an Ass! 🙂
So let’s hope that some of those are in the mirror end of this month!