I got home today after one of the best days in long time, and read the news that my old boyfriend had committed suicide. It shocked me and made me really sad.
I have been talking about my depression here a lot and really honestly. I have been in a place with my depression that I wanted to end my life, but something stopped me. And I have been blessed to have people in my life that saw my falls and offered help, listened and a shoulder to cry on.
What makes me really sad is that someone who I have shared tiny part of my life, felt so bad and sad that he felt that he need to end his life. I don’t know his circumstances or what his life was about for the past years, but whatever it was, I wish that it didn’t have to come to this.
What I’m trying to get out, from the confused mind of mine at the moment, is that please listen if someone tries to talk to you about some difficulties, be there really, forget your busy life for a moment. Stop and ask how your friends are. Let’s be more there for each other, not through social media, in real life. Tell the people who are important to you, that you love them. Send a message or call and ask what’s going on. Just listen and see what’s going on around you.
And if it’s you, try to remember that you’re not alone. I know how hard it is to ask for help, but just try. If it feels hard to ask help from a person close to you, there’s good helplines that you can call. Maybe someone at your school or at your workplace. Just remember that you’re not alone. Try to talk about it. When getting up from bed feels the hardest, give yourself compliments when you get up and walk couple of steps, those are steps forward. Try to go out for a walk, even for 5 minutes. Maybe listen to music, or even dance. Let yourself cry, it cleanses you. Maybe write your feelings down. Give yourself a chance to believe. You are not alone. ❤
Depression is not a fluke, joke, little thing. It’s real and it effects so many people. We have to talk about it. We have to tell the truth about it, not keep old beliefs alive. Please, let’s be there for others and for ourselves. We don’t have to go through all alone. There is light at the end of the tunnel!