Have you ever come to a place in your life where you’re just like “none of that shit anymore for me and in my life, thank you, bye!”? I’ve been about that life now for few months, and the freedom it brings, damn!
I’ve been way too kind to way too many people in my life, letting them walk over me and still thought the best of them. But when I was hurt to the core with just dishonesty and selfishness, I lost my interest in being anything to that person anymore. I have to thank him, for being who he was and waking me up, finally from my what should we call it, dream of that people are always good to others and don’t want to hurt you. Not that I’m saying that that one wanted to hurt me, but when we’re blind to how badly we behave towards others we don’t see how selfish and hurtful we can be. I’ve been there and been the one hurting, thank goodness I’ve taking a good and hard look at myself and grown out of that. Not a pleasant Me to be with, so I said Ok, bye to that Me long time ago.
I think when we realise how free and real we can be and feel, it’s a moment that is like reborn or something similar. The moment when you open your eyes and just know that you don’t have to care about what others say or think of you and your doing/being/likings. Freedom!
“Our scars make us know that our past was… real.”
– Jane Austen, Pride and Prejudice
I’m in a place in my life, where I’m loving whatever is making me feel something, whatever someone else is saying about that. Like loving Justin Biebers song for the sake that I just like it, even though I might not understand the young gentleman, just heck if his song makes me dance then I am loving it 100%.
I don’t think I have any real guilty pleasures or guilty secret likes anymore, as I just like them and not care what others say.
It’s funny how being back in Finland can start this questioning in me again, the one where my positivity these days is confusing others. The thing is, that in here being positive and openly happy and on top of that smiling to strangers is just wrong and weird, and maybe just because of that I do it so much :D.
It’s also good test to see how strong I am with myself now, will this place start making me smaller and more pessimistic again? Or will I keep my new found happiness strong enough to walk over those who question me?
This all is part of me finding more and more myself and who I am really and who I want to be. It’s so liberating to finally be just ME, nothing less.
So, no I don’t have time for any of your negative bullshit, I have time for honesty and openness. And love, always love. And hugs, because they are the best!
“I think the only way we can grow and get on in this world is to accept the fact we’re not perfect and live accordingly.”
– Ray Bradbury, The Illustrated Man
So, again, do not let others dim your light and make you feel like you need to change. Do you and keep shining like the shiniest unicorn in the world! ❤