It’s bubbling in my veins almost, yearning to learn more and more daily, to learn how new me works, yearning to know some people more and more, need of enjoying myself more than before.
It’s probably partly because of my job, but I’ve waking this childlike yearning in myself for learning to know more. It’s been really long since the last time that I’ve felt like I’m not afraid of the new. Of course I’ve been pretty fearless in my jumps to unknown the past years but while all of them and breaking myself free from all those shackles that held me back for so many years.
“I will not apologize for evolving past your comfort zone.”
I’ve been pulled back to being more without anything extra, being more in the nature, even for a little walk around the block for that fresh air. I’m feeling like I have too much stuff, which you would laugh at if you knew the “amount” I have. But I’m just yearning back more and more to that last springs less is more feeling. I’m dreaming of actually going and doing some hiking and camping next summer. Maybe finally in Scotland, after all this time dreaming of it. And I actually would like to share that all with someone, for the first time in my life. To share something that is beautiful and where you can be in silence without feeling uncomfortable.
There’s something in me that I don’t know, that makes me feel curious about everything now. Curious about knowing some people better, curious about visiting places again that I used to feel like I could breath free at. But at the same time, I’m not in a hurry, but I am ready to give different things a proper chance.
“I’m thankful for my struggle because without it I wouldn’t stumbled across my strength.”
I have a feeling that this all has something to do with the fact that my life is better than ever before. I have more love and happiness in my life than ever before. I have insanely amazing support in my friends and family. I have a job that I truly enjoy and get to better myself at, and which is a grown up job, first for me. So maybe my curiosity comes partly from the fact that I’m not used to feeling this okay with everything. Maybe it’s something that has been wanting to come out but I’ve just suffocated it for so long.
“You are under no obligation to be the same person you were a year, a month, or even 15 minutes ago. You have the right to grow. no apologies.”
I’m just more honest with myself, open to who I am, have more courage and feeling strong and confident. I know who I am and what is my worth. Finally.
I do not need to change a thing in myself.
I deserve all the love and happiness in my life, just like everyone else does too.