From Slow and Luscious to Strong and Luscious

IMG_7533Something changed in me during that Ultra of mine, yes a lot but one thing that is very particular.

It was the first time in my life that I had this tiny spark waking up in me. That spark that wants to better myself and is really willing to put myself on that edge and over my comfort zone. I actually want to be good at Ultras and trail running, not just do it solely for my own fun.

I’ve never really been too much in to pushing myself over that line. I think in the end I’ve always been afraid what is really in me, if I work harder for it. Yeah, that good old fear…

But if I was able to finish that race, I am able to push myself in my running. If I didn’t give up there, why would I give up now that I’m already on my way to bettering myself? It would not make any sense.

So I knew even during the race that what I need to change and do from now on. I have little over two months to go to my next Ultra, same distance 58km, on an island too. So I know what I want and need to improve in my body, mind feels ready and just need to be kept on that strong level it is now.

I’ve contacted a coach for my running, already have a personal trainer for the gym work, and am talking about a better race nutrition. So I’m really taking the steps to the right direction.

This is a test for myself to see how dedicated I am, I know I have it in me, but I just need to really show it too. Inside of myself I know that I have what it takes to be actually good in this Ultra running. I might never be the fastest but I have guts and the mental side and with training and hard work my pace will increase too.

I’ve never really been too competitive but something woke in me during that race, my own potential probably. I saw who I really am, not someone anymore who just wants things but isn’t willing to really work for them. And I knew that I had a plan on how to train for that race too, but I really didn’t follow through, so with this new mentality and headspace I feel that I have a new chance, and I really want to show myself how hard I can work.

And I can only go forward and maybe it was a good thing that my first official Ultra took me that long. I know that I am able to get better from that. And after todays hill repeats, I actually feel that this will work, yes! 🙂

So Ultra Project “From Slow and Luscious to Strong and Luscious” has began!

PMA ❤IMG_7534

Suffer Better

Last weekend I had a plan to run a long run. That was my goal.

My training has started really well, I’ve gotten into this rhythm of being more on my feet. So last week I ran three days in a row for 10km a day. And that plan of running around 30km long run on that weekend.

The weather didn’t really make me feel enthusiastic about being out and about for three to four hours. Saturday was just super stormy and icy, so I took it as a proper rest day, which was needed too. So my only change was to run on Sunday.

I woke up on Sunday to the notion that it will be a hard one. It was snowing or more like snowsleetandrain together. It was super wet and mushy. Yei…

But then I thought to myself that this is exactly what I need, I need to go out and suffer in a good way. Because I have no idea what the weather is on April during my first Ultra, it can be anything, so it’s better to go out and push through.

So off I went. The first 7km was just rough, then I stopped and reminded myself that this is my decision, no one is making me run in a sleet rain. This is part of making my dreams come true, so suck it up and keep going! And I went all the way to 27km. Really proud of that, in sleet and all :).

Making dreams like mine come true, is not supposed to be easy, I didn’t choose a sport that makes everything always easy. I chose the one thing, I know, that makes you peel yourself open like an onion and that stuff is not easy but it’s worth it!

Suffer better. PMA ❤IMG_6604