29 Days Of Gratitude – Day 29 The Late Edition


How time flies and makes you feel like you’ve done nothing even when you know that you’ve done crazy much…

That’s how my last week and last day of my challenge definitely was. So much, too much to be honest.

The things I’ve noticed even more when going gets rough and you feel so small in front of it all, is that with the right people in your life, you’re going to be able to push it through. It took me many many years to realise who are the right people to let close and I’m now reaping the benefits of my mistakes and teachings of those mistakes. Life is about learning, day in day out, and this matter with people isn’t any different.

I love how the ones I have the closest know exactly what I’ve gone through and in their own way can reflect it all. The fact that you’re able to be long without talking and then when you do, it feels like no time has passed. That is the best, and those people are worth keeping close.

What I’ve learned this past month is that life has a way of almost testing you until you admit what is right and what wrong, it will steer you to your right path with the right people to do what you’re supposed to do. And it’s up to you if you’re going to listen and learn or keep going and fight and fight against it all. The uncertainty of it all is actually a gift to be embraced. We only have this moment, not before or next, just now. And that is definitely something I am learning to believe and let be, to make myself appreciate truly this moment.

I can plan something in my future and I can have goals and work towards them, I can have dreams and wishes, but I just have to be patient with whatever it is and see how life goes on.

The things that are important to me now are so different and also so the same as I had before this past month. But the thing I wanted to gain from it was to be more positive and be able to let go of the negativity I held so close to me. I’ve noticed a difference in myself and I’ve also surprised myself with my openness and bravery, and how insanely relentless and strong I am. Something I seem to forget so often.

One thing that I’m 50% struggling and 50% embracing, is the fact that the past is past and I can’t let it define who I am now, because I am so far from who I was back them. My mistakes from my past are with me in certain things still in my everyday life, but I am not the same and that makes the difference. I am working and have been working hard to be better than I was before, and I know and want to believe that I’ve succeeded in that. And will keep working till my last day here. We are a work in progress forever. And I think that’s the best part, we can never be ready or done. We have to trust in what we are at that moment and see what happens.

Whenever I’ve felt the most exhausted and felt lost and like there’s no light at the end of the tunnel, I’ve managed to in the end got out and be better and stronger than before. And I’ve realised that damn, that was the exact thing I needed to do and go through to be where I am now. So thank you February for almost kicking my ass, I expect you showing me something amazing in my near future ;).



29 Days Of Gratitude – Days 19 To 28

img_3800Days just fly by and so much has happened. Apologies for not writing anything, life took over and my energy levels weren’t as high as I hoped all days, or then I just decided to live my life without writing anything. Both good reasons for me. 🙂

To sum up these days.

Something that I did start embracing earlier already, the confusion that life throws at you at times. Or some times more than you would wish for. I think it’s something that is good to take in and just try to go with the flow. We can never really know what will happen or control everything, which is good, so it’s better to just trust your journey and keep pushing on.

I think for me, trusting this journey of mine has been a bit harder lately. Even though I know and I have this certainty in me that all will be okay and that all my dreams and goals are moving forward. But still, embracing the uncertainty is not the easiest. Working progress for sure.

I’ve also really understood how important having the right kind of people around you is. I’ve learned it day by day the past couple of years, but it goes on with little extra pushes at times. And I’ve had the best moments lately, reminding me of just that.

Patience, that’s becoming my friend more and more. I’m learning and I’m not and will never be great at it, which is okay. But I’m getting better at it. It’s part of this trusting my journey thing. Without patience I will not make the right decisions or let myself really be me without rushing.

I’m so loved up and proud of the people I’m able to push forward and support. A great friend just went and won the Finnish Eurovision and she is going to be competing in Stockholm in May!! I could not have been any prouder of Sandhja for being exactly who she is and killing it all with so much love and character!! My voice might be far from normal now and legs tired from all that dancing and singing, but yesterday was amazing. Watching her from few meters, doing her thing to the fullest!! Support your friends, that’s what it’s all about! ❤

I kind of love the challenge life is giving me, it makes me follow my dreams braver than I’ve done before. It makes me take risks that I know in me that I will only reap so much benefit and memories and experience. It’s not easy always, thank goodness it’s not. I get to live my life with the best people, loving pretty much every moment of it and getting to support my friends as much as I can while doing this all! How great is that!!

Let’s love this all, it’s not going to last forever. LOVELOVELOVE. And be appreciative of what you have. Remember that good attitude of gratitude and love some more. ❤ PMA

29 Days of Gratitude – Day 18

Photo by Markus Kontiainen

Photo by Markus Kontiainen

This will be simple.

I am grateful today for the uncertainty that life throws at you.

It’s not something that is easy to be grateful for, but I had to admit to myself that that’s exactly what I need to be. I need to embrace the uncertainty and feel it and ask for help and think what I can do with it.

” Lord knows that you can’t trust your head, when you’re standing on the edge.”

– Sia – Footprints

This time I am learning. I am moving forward. I am taking the moment, the day, the day as it comes. Trying not to overthink something that I just don’t have an idea of yet. Before I actually know the facts. Easy, definitely not. Necessary, definitely yes.

Be grateful of the uncertainty. Just be. You’ll understand later why.


29 Days Of Gratitude – Day 17

No filters whatsoever!

No filters whatsoever!

What up the most beautiful sunset in a looooooong time! Definite candidate for the spot of things today that I’m the most grateful for.

I’m going to do a little list of things, because that feels the best today.

Me feeling a lot better, waking up with a positive mind.

Feeling also that yesterdays run had been good, the little tiredness in my body felt great.

Finding new amazing music and sharing it with friends. And obviously jamming to it publicly :).

Feeling accomplished at work.

Getting a smile from a stranger.

Reading super interesting articles.

Getting feedback from something that was important to me and that I forgot to triple check before sending it forward. Be grateful for the mistakes you’ve made.

Having friends saying their honest opinion about certain things you need a little reality check at times… Love this. It’s about the honesty.

For making the most delicious salad for lunch, winning!

So more PMA, LOVE and SMILES! ❤

29 Days Of Gratitude – Day 16

img_3567Oh today, you surrounded me with your beauty and all that sunshine and I felt like the luckiest girl in the world.

Some days are just simply amazing, there are normality and maybe some negative stuff in them, but they end up making you still feel good. You’re able to smile with the simplest things that could make you smile, that is best.

Now that my mind has realized again that it’s so much easier to be positive, keep that positive mindset, my days are just easier. I am happier and feel more open to goodness.

Things that I am grateful today: sunshine, you’ve been missed. Running after all of my health issues. Talking with friends and laughing with them. Being able to send some hugs through the web to a friend who needed them. Being able to hear from another friend after a long time. Dancing and vibing to various songs in public, which obviously isn’t “allowed” haha. Being with my family and share my day with them. Sauna.

Tomorrow will be great!