29 Days Of Gratitude – Days 19 To 28

img_3800Days just fly by and so much has happened. Apologies for not writing anything, life took over and my energy levels weren’t as high as I hoped all days, or then I just decided to live my life without writing anything. Both good reasons for me. 🙂

To sum up these days.

Something that I did start embracing earlier already, the confusion that life throws at you at times. Or some times more than you would wish for. I think it’s something that is good to take in and just try to go with the flow. We can never really know what will happen or control everything, which is good, so it’s better to just trust your journey and keep pushing on.

I think for me, trusting this journey of mine has been a bit harder lately. Even though I know and I have this certainty in me that all will be okay and that all my dreams and goals are moving forward. But still, embracing the uncertainty is not the easiest. Working progress for sure.

I’ve also really understood how important having the right kind of people around you is. I’ve learned it day by day the past couple of years, but it goes on with little extra pushes at times. And I’ve had the best moments lately, reminding me of just that.

Patience, that’s becoming my friend more and more. I’m learning and I’m not and will never be great at it, which is okay. But I’m getting better at it. It’s part of this trusting my journey thing. Without patience I will not make the right decisions or let myself really be me without rushing.

I’m so loved up and proud of the people I’m able to push forward and support. A great friend just went and won the Finnish Eurovision and she is going to be competing in Stockholm in May!! I could not have been any prouder of Sandhja for being exactly who she is and killing it all with so much love and character!! My voice might be far from normal now and legs tired from all that dancing and singing, but yesterday was amazing. Watching her from few meters, doing her thing to the fullest!! Support your friends, that’s what it’s all about! ❤

I kind of love the challenge life is giving me, it makes me follow my dreams braver than I’ve done before. It makes me take risks that I know in me that I will only reap so much benefit and memories and experience. It’s not easy always, thank goodness it’s not. I get to live my life with the best people, loving pretty much every moment of it and getting to support my friends as much as I can while doing this all! How great is that!!

Let’s love this all, it’s not going to last forever. LOVELOVELOVE. And be appreciative of what you have. Remember that good attitude of gratitude and love some more. ❤ PMA

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Live. Learn. Grow. Move On.

I didn’t have any kind of crisis when I turned 30, I was just happy to get a clean start, but I feel like I’m in some search momentum in my life now. Wouldn’t say a crisis, but a search of a bigger picture of myself, yes.

Live

If something, I have lived. Ups and downs more than one could need. Struggle that’s only made me stronger than I ever thought possible. Even through it all, I’m happy for all the heartbreaks and losses and struggles. I would not be anywhere close to who I am now without them, and where I am now is the best I’ve ever been. And I always wished when I was younger that that day when I’m in a rocking chair I would have stories, I do have those and keep living to have more of them.img_3042Learn

I could’ve chosen easier routes and roads to go forward but I’ve always chosen the ones that make me learn the most. Not easy, but worth it. I’m in a point in my life where I know that I won’t have unlimited amount of time, so I want to do the things now that I want and dream, but I don’t want to rush my life just experiencing. Things have a habit of figuring themselves out, if I just trust that. All have before so all will in my future too. Trust that gut of yours and don’t try to control everything too much. Risks are always worth taking. And, never, ever loose that yearn to learn more.

“If you have been brutally broken, but still have the courage to be gentle to others then you deserve a love deeper than the ocean itself.”

-Nikita Gill

Grow

I might be almost 32, but that doesn’t mean that I have to be where the majority of my peers are. I don’t need to do and live my life in a way that is expected in some grand scheme of things. All will happen that is meant to happen, and what won’t doesn’t mean that my life wouldn’t be successful and fulfilling for me. But I’ve needed to grow to understand that some things I yearn won’t wait, I need to do what I have bubbling in me. I also don’t feel like I need to wait to say “those” things to people, if I have something that I want to be honest about. I’ve grown enough with myself to be sure and strong woman that I don’t need to take whatever people throw at this world to each other. It’s okay for me to stand up for myself and keep myself on the number one spot. So let yourself grow to that person you have in you, let that amazing You come out. I’m learning and growing into that person every damn day.

“Being both soft and strong is a combination very few have mastered.”

-Yasmin Mogahed

Move On

Let go of those people, things, habits, whatever you are dragging with you. Those things that hold you back from being the best you, you can be. We aren’t going to be here forever and you and I owe it to ourselves to be honest to ourselves and let go of all that negativity, and just be truthful and happy with what we have. The freedom you get from letting go is insane. But give yourself time for all that work that you need to grieve, to be mad, to be sad, to cry, to let go, to forgive and especially forgive yourself. And in the end and through it all, lovelovelove yourself. You deserve only good in your life, whatever it is that makes you happy and feel good, give that space to yourself and let go of all unnecessary. And remember that is completely okay to move on. And also remember, you are only a human, you don’t have to be able to take everything. You make mistakes, that you move on from. It’s all good.

“Yesterday I was clever, so I wanted to change the world. Today I am wise, so I am changing myself.”

-Rumi

PMA ❤

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