I think that in every family has that one person who manages to hurt you with useless remarks or puts you down in situations where, if someone else would say the same thing as you, they wouldn’t react but with you they just react like no other.
I have never understood why some people have this kind of need. To “share” their own bad feeling or pain to someone who is completely innocent and have nothing to do with the actual reason. And why some people like me in this case makes them react like that.
Or why is it so hard for some people to accept that you have changed and aren’t the same young person that you were 10 years ago?!
But even when you deep down know that it’s not about you, but about that persons own dark emotions, it’s extremely painfull to take it without hurting and making you think that you’ve done something wrong. Even though you haven’t. And start to think always that why you have to be that target always.
And when it comes to family, whether it’s close or little bit further, they will be your family for the rest of your life and you don’t really have any saying in that. You have to tolerate them, and even through all shit you love them. And that is the hard part! How to keep loving someone you puts you down and hurts you like that, mostly infront rest of your family.
They might be the most important person to you and then they do shit like that, but don’t see that themselves, which makes it even worse because it feels completely useless saying anything about it.
But then you have to remind yourself that it’s not about you, it’s their problem and you have to try your hardest to remember that you are amazing and have done nothing wrong. But that is the hardest thing to remember in those situations when you hurt like hell.
I have made complete U-turn in my life this past year. I’m so goddamn proud of myself and I know that my only way is up! I wish that even those hardest skin people would give me a chance to show how amazing I am these days. Isn’t that what weall wish, to just have a chance to be what we are in our best?!
Running has changed me completely. It has given me the strenght to believe in myself, to make me change my willingness to always give up and just keep going because I’ve already shown myself that I can and even more. I love running because it gave me new chance to live my life better. It made me love myself first time in 29 years. How effing awesome that is!!
I wish that all assholesthat this world carries, would have something in their life that would make them feel so good that they don’t have to be assholes without any reason. That is my only wish tonight. Let’s be nice to each other and let’s be genuinely proud of each others good things and feelings!!
Here’s one photo that I found and it’s about not being perfect in that Big sense but being perfect with all our imperfects. Let’s just love❤️.