Marathon Fever

It has hit me hard… Marathon fever!

As some of you know, I have my first full Marathon this September in Berlin. Last week I finally realized that it’s happening and I probably should start thinking about the training plan… Somehow I thought in my pretty head that I still have loads of time, ended up being not so much. My training starts next month :). Excited and scared at the same time!!

To be honest, I kind of lost my motivation to run or do anything active after Berlin, no idea why. Maybe it was so overwhelming that it was too much and I needed a break. Also some personal stuff took my interest in anything for little while, but I feel that I’m getting back on my groove and happiness.

Yesterday was the day of Boston Marathon. It was the first marathon I have ever watched and it was so amazing and super emotional. I knew that I cry easy but I didn’t know that I would get that emotional just watching people on the start line waiting to go. It made me think about my own full in Berlin and also made me laugh a little because I thought that I probably need some extra hydration because of all the tears :D.

And because I feel that I can do anything, I entered for the London Marathon 2015 ballot this morning! Fingers crossed!

Also, I have dreams of running Copenhagen half and Amsterdam half this year too. This girl has dreams for days!!

I’m also searching a charity for depression that I could raise money for, because I really want to give back something that I have got in my past and still in my everyday life.

Back to my future training… I chose to use training plan from Hal Higdon. I didn’t have any clue which training plan is good, so I got some help from a friend who’s run a marathon and now I am covered. I chose the Novice 2 plan, not too much so there might be space for me to do more if I feel like it, but let’s go slow and smart on this one. I will keep you posted with how it all goes.

Here’s a link to Hal Higdons site

Btw… The Secret Life Of Walter Mitty is a great movie, and the soundtrack is perfect for long and steady runs! ๐Ÿ™‚

Berlin Half – My First Half


Where to begin… Honestly one of the best times of my life, if not the best. So overwhelming and awesome. Body and mind were not ready for all what was coming :).

I had been waiting for this race for more than half a year and obviously the anticipation was growing as I went on closer to the race. Meeting almost all of the people for the first time, even some of my running heroes. After my birthday long run, I wasn’t nervous about the race, I knew that I can do it and I trusted that. But all the people, wow! I was also nervous because I was a solodolo, I didn’t represent any crews or anything. To be honest my deepest fear was that I would be running the race alone… I know it sounds funny but I felt that. To my happiness and relief, we decided with a friend from Manchester to run it together. I knew some people before the event so I felt little calmer.

The weekend was full of pure happiness, laughter, dancing, new amazing people, old friends that I saw for the first time and finally a crew I can say is my family/home/mine.

Rich, Me, Dani and Chippy in the front, waiting for the race to start!

So the race! It was super hot, the weather was so amazing but just crazy hot! Thank god I took shorts with me, because otherwise I would have melted haha. I was running with my friends, Rich, Chippy and Dani. We started together and me and Rich took it all the way to the end together, hand in hand and all :). By the 2k it was so warm that first of us girls was ripping her shirt off, then the second and then I was having this serious inner battle of taking my shirt off, because my insecurity area is my belly… For good maybe 5-10 minutes I was battling and then said to myself that “stop that you look good!” and ripped my shirt off! Though I couldn’t believe it but yeah, I did it! ๐Ÿ˜€

We had nice pace, nothing crazy, and all the way to maybe 18 kilometers it was okay, but then my legs just got tired. I didn’t want to quit or walk but they were tired. But I pushed through with this mantra in my head saying “You got this!” all the way to the end!ย 

I am so happy to have ran this race with my friend, brother, crew member, Rich! We decided to run this race together as it was our first. We never left each other, kept pushing and making sure that we are okay. He took care of me when I (probably) looked tired as **** and I did the same. I am truly blessed to have him as friend, he’s the Bombzzzz!! Love you!! You rock big time! ๐Ÿ™‚

No crying on the finish line… which was real surprise for me but the moment I heard my boyfriends voice on the phone the tears just shot out of my eyes!! ๐Ÿ˜€ That’s how it goes sometimes.

I had a little stumble on my raceday road… I got an heatstroke from that superb weather and had to let the after party to others and sleep my nausea away. Bummed but I knew that there will be new partys, so not too much disappointment there.

Serious proof! Boom!

The most amazing thing for me was to have a crew where I was taken in. I am so proud and honored to rep Still Waters Run Deep Manchester now and also to run my first half in their “colors”. The fact that my closest and dearest friends are the founders and members makes it all the better! I might be living in Germany but I know that my family has my back and this is huge for me, as I have been dreaming of being a part of a running crew since the day I started (almost).

My SWRD brothers!

My SWRD brothers!

I had the most amazing day and a half with my friends before I left Berlin. I have never been happier to call some people my friends. Blessed, that’s how I feel.

The Clique

My Clique

This past long weekend has given me so much, taking all the sweat I had in me, opened my eyes to so many thing but also made little sad. Sad mostly because I will miss a lot of people, until we see again.

But also because it’s eye opening to see how some people act and forget to leave their egos at home. There will always be people who aren’t like you thought they will be, and obviously that is disappointing. I think it’s good for us all to remind ourselves that we do this because we love running, not because we are better/cooler/whatever than others. We are the same, our passion might be different. Let’s remember that we come from so many different situations and places and we need to be open to difference, we are the same and still different and that is a great thing!

Running alone is pretty great, but when you can share it, it’s just awesome. How nice it is to see your friends smile next to you, knowing that if it gets hard they are there for you! Pure LOVE!

Thank you to all you who gave me the best time ever, thank you to all the new people I got the opportunity to meet, thank you to my awesome roommates, my northern brothers, my Big Brother for life, and last but definitely not least, thank you BEYONCE!! ๐Ÿ˜€



Luckiest Girl In The World!!

Oh yes! I am the luckiest girl in the world!! This birthday of mine today has been the best birthday ever! It has overwhelmed and humbled me to the core and I’ve never felt this loved and blessed.

I have been shying away from having birthdays for many many years and I didn’t have any plans for this big 30 either, but oh boy was I surprised with huge amount of love!

It all started on the moment when the day changed… My dear friend was waiting to clock to hit midnight and the second it did, she pulled a gift from her bag and gave me nicest birthday speech ever. I had to dug my head in her hear because I was about to cry :). And the gift is so me and she made it for me, how awesome is that!! She’s so talented and I love her!!

Then this morning after waking up I skyped with my family in Finland and they even sang to me, winning!! It was so amazing to see my family and just made my heart fill up with warmth and happiness, love you!!

Couple of days ago, I gave myself a promise that on my birthday I will run an long run to celebrate this new chapter, and I did!! I wanted to run 18 km to check how it feels and to make me ready for next sunday for the Berlin Half Marathon.

This run was the best in so many months, felt so amazing! I just ran out of pure happiness. My shin pain was pretty much gone and even got better as in no pain at all, so nice! I felt light, free, blessed, humbled, happy, strong. I even got back to my favorite running place, when you don’t think anything and just in away are in this meditative mindset, it’s the Bombzz! Also there was this moment where I ran past an buss stop and looked at myself and said to myself ” You look Strong!” and I am, so strong and I need to remember that!

When I got back home I was just smiling and feeling amazing and I knew that my wish of having tacos for birthday breakfast was cooking and soon ready. Lucky me :). But as I was told to go away from the kitchen for a little, I didn’t ever could thought of what’s coming! I was greeted with gifts from my dear friend and my boyfriend and some pirate themed party gifts! I got so overwhelmed about all of this that I just stared and couldn’t move and ended up crying :).

Today has been the best day ever! I’m so happy to start this new chapter, new age and all of the new doors that I have in my future! Thank you to all who have remembered me, means so much, I feel extremely lucky and blessed and this day has humbled me to the core!!


This song was playing when I was running and I felt so strongly that it’s my new Me singing to my old Me. I have chosen my battles and I am winning now for sure! ๐Ÿ™‚


I’m Back!!


I ran today!! I decided that I have to try it eventually. I was terrified and scared. I was so worried that my leg would hurt and my dreams of the Half Marathon are gone.

I was checking the starting time of the Half this morning and on the website is a “clock” of how long till the race day, and it said 6 weeks and that woke me up. I realized that I have to try if I want to run even some part of it :).

I was super nervous when I put my running stuff on and my dog was getting excited too. I thought that it’s the best option to go out with my dog, and if my leg starts hurting I can just keep walking with him.

When the trail started I took a deep breath and take those careful first steps, all felt good. I was so happy!! I took it super easy, with the words “Listen To Your Body” like a mantra in my head and for 4 km I kept going, with some walking in between.

I feel now, that I’m back, like I got my Self back. I felt that I got my motivation back, which is amazing!

Now I have to remember to take it slowly and listen to my body, but I’m BACK and that’s the most important thing to me!!

Shoes – good or bad?

Shoes… For some they are addiction, for others useless.

I started studying shoes and their history, by pure accident. I’ve been reading running related books the past 6 months, and usually there is something about shoes. But once I got injured I really wanted ย to know more, and with good luck I happened to buy a book that is more than amazing and really goes from only preventing injuries and knowing how to this or that, to more about where shoes came from and why you use this or that shoe, the history, a lot of very good info. Also while being sick the past weeks, I have been watching many documentaries about shoes and their history (gotta love Netflix).

All this new information has made me think, really, what I put on my feet and why. For me this all started from an injury but now it’s a lot more. I feel that I just want to get rid of all those shoes that are pure evil to my feet and by wearing them, I’m also hurting my body without realizing it.

I was thinking about what kind of shoes I have been wearing in my past, childhood, teenage years and so on. The main thing that I, to my sadness, realized that I used usually too small shoes, like really small. It was more about how they looked than the fact that they just didn’t fit. And maybe it’s part of being a girl, but I liked to look down and see small feet… I know that some other girls do that too. I also remember this thing that I had when I was younger and mostly used skate shoes, that they always got bigger with use, so I bought a little too small pair and then after some, painful, time they would get “perfect”. ย There was also times when through my work I got sample shoes, and I took them, but they were sooo small. But they were free! So I did use them, pain and all.

I remember hating if shoes felt loose, for me it had to be snug, snugger the better… But that is just plain stupid! And now I’m paying the prize for those awesome decisions. My other heel looks like some dinosaurthing and I’ve only lost one toenail during my last years running in too small shoes. Those are the “small” problems, the bigger ones are inside my body.

I first injured my knees back when I was running track, around 13 years old. That and the lack of interest in recovery training made my whole back go all wonky, and that in the end made my hips hurt and had to get some orthopedics. But my use of too small shoes did not end there, why would it?

At the moment, after few other injuries, my left side is way weaker than my right. When I last time injured my knee few years ago in my bike messenger days, my orthopedist said that because I’ve been walking all wrong for so many years, the problem with my knee is going to go up to my hips and lower back at some point, and did it! Hell yeah, all out and pulling all the stunts while at it!

Running has been the first thing that actually has really helped with my lower back problems and with that hips too. But I’m still really lopsided.

But the questions that I have been asking myself is that why would you do something like that to yourself? I would say that 100% vanity. There is no other reason that comes to my mind when I think about it. And that is sad!

After learning more and more about what is good and what is bad for your feet and through them to your whole body, I’ve really wanted to change that. I love how my toes are free to move, sideways, in my shoes that are the right size. I love that the shoes don’t feel uncomfortable but actually nice. ย With time I would love to start using less and less supported shoes, and I don’t mean only running shoes, but all. By supported here I mean overly thick soles, not so much running shoes related support. I also kind of want to ditch any high heels, the idea of doing that to my feet make me grin.

Don’t get me wrong, I don’t really want to start wearing some weird looking “health” shoes either, but I will start actually think what I put on my feet. I might even sometimes put high heels on, but also think about their size first.

Most of all I want to get my body at least little bit more in balance, not be this lopsided anymore. It’s not even that hard, I just have to do the training…

I also know now that what I should think and not think when choosing shoes. I am extremely grateful to my Mom, who always said that you should walk as much as you can without shoes and socks. With that in the back of my head, I have always hated using shoes inside and as soon as I can, I will take them and my socks off :).

Below is the book that has opened my eyes, and is also really good read, not only for runners. I recommend!