Simple(r) : My Wardrobe Challenge

wp-1478617952584.pngI’ve wanted to challenge myself for quite some time with being more and more sustainable, think as much as I can about my choices. I’ve done a lot of changes in my life towards simpler and more minimalist life the past years, and now that I have my own home again, I can be the only one doing the choices that I feel to be right for me and with that to the environment and the people who produce what I buy.

During the past summer I started reading a lot more and with great books comes great knowledge and you start questioning your choices, which I think is necessary if we want to grow. What I noticed in many of those books or articles was that they brought up this question in me that what is the most important thing for me, my possessions or experiences. Because what I’ve noticed these past few years is that the less I have the happier I am, and now that I have my own space “to fill”, it would be really easy to just do that. But that’s the last thing I want to do. I feel uncomfortable as soon as I have more, and just want to get either rid of them or find them a new home, and the thing is that I don’t own that much, very little actually. But still, I don’t want to fill my home or my head with stuff that is not necessary if I don’t have to.

I understand that we live in a world where spending money and consumerism is the thing, to show with your new hype things that you are something. It’s almost better and new and faster and this and that, that’s how I feel. A lot of the time we forget what we have, because we have so much. If you don’t even remember what you own, how necessary those things are for your wellbeing?

This challenge is not only making my closets cleaner, what they already are, but to make me feel more conscious about my choices when I do buy something, in this case clothes. I do challenge myself in this same way in everything in my life, from food to home products to how I go from one place to another.

What I want to do is to only have the clothes and shoes I actually wear in my closet, not the inbetweens or maybe when I’m skinnier or what ever it is you save something for. And when I do buy something new, I want to think and do some research about where it comes from, does the brand care about the fabric and how it’s made and about the people who make it, is it made sustainable/ ecological/ ethical and still be something I want to wear without me having to change my style. So I’m banning all fast fashion brands and stores from myself, yes it might mean that I need to wear the same clothes I have now for longer and have less variety, but I rather save my money to buy something that is well made, possibly close to me and that I can use my money with clear conscience. And I also want to take this one in, one out habit in my life, so if I find something that can replace what I have and what is better, I might buy that and put the old one away. But only if there’s really a reason for it, not just for the want aspect of buying.

I did some digging today in my closets and went through all I have. I put all that didn’t fit me now and that I had saved for that “later” day, in a pile to go through and see where they could go, if I could sell some and the rest give to charity. I only saved what I actually wear, or have worn in the last 6 months. That’s also something I’ve done for a long time now, if I haven’t used or worn something in the past 6 months, then I put it forward because I doubt that I’ll wear it later either.

I counted the clothes I wear now, and I had less than 20 items, that includes pants, tops, dresses and skirts. All in all it looks that I have around 50 items of clothes. And that’s max. I also have 5 pairs of sneakers, 1 pair of “work” boots and a pair of “fancier” low leather shoes. And that feels more than enough, the only things that I’ve wanted to buy for some time and feel that I need are a pair of good jeans because I don’t have any at the moment, but I know which ones I would get when I can, so no problem there. Kings of Indigo, I’m lusting after you! 🙂 And couple button up shirts, other than those, I feel that I have all that I need. Of course if there would all of sudden be a party that I would need to really dress up I would need to get something, but as I don’t have those in my life all the time and often, I think I’m okay.

So basically the challenge is very simple, whatever I buy from now on, will have to be sustainable/ ethical and ecologically made. That’s it.

I’ve found some amazing brands already that would fill the void for my love of the style that I could easily find from And Other Stories or COS, but I’m on the hunt for more similar ones as my style is very easy, classic and minimalist.

Brands that I love now are Kings of Indigo, I could pretty much buy anything from them. Patagonia, always as they really work hard to make that difference in how to produce clothes and equipment. Bysigne from Denmark has some really nice pieces, Armed Angels from Germany does really nice stuff too, Klättermusen from Sweden, Halla x Halla from Finland, Studio August from Estonia has the most amazing and beautiful pieces, again a brand that I could pretty much buy everything from, Mori Collective from Finland has great pieces too. And I have to say that I like what adidas is doing research wise and to try to make a difference as a massive company.  So there are few that I’ve found already but of course I’m on the hunt all the time now.

I’m feeling really optimistic about this personal challenge, as it’s like a continuity to what I’ve been doing for some time now. Less stuff means clearer head to me and for me the idea of being a minimalist or how ever you want to call this, mixed with being concerned about the worlds future, is more about the journey to knowing who you are, not so much about frantically putting stuff away. If something gives serious substance to your life, then collect it, like for me books give me life so I tend to buy them, but I’ve also started to give them forward too, as we rarely read them more than once.

From now on, I will do little posts about the clothes I have bought and tell you why I chose that one. And if you have any great tips for me on what brands I should check out, please leave a comment and I’ll check them out! 🙂

Here’s couple sites that might be interesting if this is something you feel that you would want to do to, and a great podcast about what minimalism really is about.

The Minimalists 

Becoming Minimalist

Rich Roll podcast : Joshua Fields Millburn

Also, I highly recommend that everyone watches Before the Flood documentary!

 

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Embracing The ME I Am Right Now

wp-1477852857055.pngIt’s taken me some time to come to terms with who I am right now, and how much I love the Me right now. It’s weird feeling, I’ve never felt this good with all of me and my life in general before. I’ve always yearned and hoped and wished for this kind of feeling and now I have exactly that in my life, made by me. I really feel that I’m giving myself a chance to really embrace who I am right now, no apologies or anything. Me.

Before I wrote a lot here, I journaled all that I was going through, I felt that it was the best way to get it all out. And for a long time it was, it was who I was and could stand behind with no hesitation. But lately, more so this year, I’ve felt that I want to take a step back with it all, with all that’s been in my life. I needed to quiet down my life, in all areas, to find who I am and be okay with all of it.

I’ve been about the less is more life for couple of years now, in a way searching what it means to me. And I’m on that path still but found out what it really is right now. I’ve read a lot, which means that I’ve learned a lot, and that has helped me with how I feel about certain issues and what I personally want to do to them in my life.

One thing that was massively important to me when I moved to my own place, was to be able to fully be the one who decides what products to use around the apartment. I remember the day I got the keys and went to buy some cleaning products and how happy it made me to be able to choose the ones I wanted, the ones that are cleaner and at least a bit better for the nature. Sometimes it’s that simple of a thing that can spark your being slowly back to it’s “who am I?” gear to the right direction.

I’ve also really started to think more about the food I am eating and what it does to me, but also a lot of what it does the environment. I’ve noticed that when I live alone, I tend to go back to my vegan ways. I’ve been pretty much vegetarian for a long time, but sensing how I want to go back to those ways that truly felt the best for me and my body. And that are truly the best for the world too. A thing that is important to me, as I feel that why should any animal suffer in any way for my satisfaction when it’s not really even doing that. I feel better and I’m not harming any one while choosing this, a win – win situation.

Back when I originally started my journey to better health, especially mental health and finding ways to feel better as a whole, it was a selfish want that sparked it all. It was because I felt and was overweight and didn’t like how I looked and how that made me feel. That was the root reason for my want to change. As the time has gone by, I’ve gone from one end to another and back again and to this. But what has changed that I know more, and it’s getting harder and harder to just push the knowledge to the side and keep going like it doesn’t exist. They say that ignorance is a bliss, and in a way it is, but at what cost. I’ve been asking myself that a lot this summer. It’s really easy to be selfish and only think of your own happiness.

I think my less is more mentality has grown to take over all areas of my life, and it feels really good. I find that when I calm my life down to a level where I am strong enough to really say what I want and don’t want, to make those hard decisions without doubt in me, then I get closer and closer to my true self. I’ve started to question my decisions in a whole new way and found answers that I didn’t think I would have the courage to say even to myself. If I’ve always been honest, I’ve really been honest to myself now.

I can say that it’s one of the best feelings in the world when you are completely happy with your life and You. Like I said, I’ve wanted this moment or feeling in my life my whole life, but I’ve also been afraid of who that me really is and how it all could really feel.

This is all a funny tangle of things, but it basically all comes down to me enjoying life in the simplest of ways. I absolutely love being on my own and just read or watch interesting documentaries or movies or some ridiculous reality show. I love that I don’t feel anymore that there’s something wrong with me needing that much time alone, because I’ve felt for so many years that there was something wrong with me. That me being really sensitive is a fault in me, when it’s actually a strength.

For me right now living and enjoying my life in the simplest of ways means that I choose to buy foods that are organic and good for me and the environment, to challenge myself in finding ways and products in all areas of my life to be cleaner, to get rid of all that I truly don’t need and keeping my home simple and uncluttered.

I want to challenge myself in ways that I haven’t before and take myself further in the search of Me.

Right now for example, I am challenging myself to find clothing brands that are sustainable and ethical, while maintaining the style I’ve come to feel Me. I’m not going to buy any fast fashion anymore, the only things I’m still “allowed” to buy outside of this challenge are underwear and certain sports items, if I really can’t find alternatives to them. The thing is that I’ve bought so little clothes this year that where I’m starting is situation that I actually need new clothes, but I rather keep wearing the ones I have now than buy something that doesn’t feel right. And I’ve noticed that the less you cave in the less you feel the need. I’m happy that my general style is very simplistic and classic in a way and that I rarely feel like I want to jump to different hype styles. But the main thing in this challenge is that I want to show myself that having this style is possible in ethical and sustainable way too.

I strongly feel that it’s good to consider the whole picture of our actions and not just what feels the best for you. I’ve found myself thinking a lot that if it’s important to me that I use clean skin and hair care products, and eat clean food, then why don’t I only buy clothes with the same mindset or all else we need in our lives. I don’t think that it can’t be a whole “deal” and that you need to be without something because of this mindset. I think it’s just more about finding ways to make it work. And right now, I want to challenge myself with it and show that I can do it.

What this all really boils down to is Me feeling better and better with less is more as a whole life mindset. Being 100% okay with who I am and not being uncomfortable to face my fears or insecurities. Loving the life I am living right now and not thinking jealously that why is someone else having this or that and why am I here just being bitter of their success.

I’ve found ways to find more peace in my life, from meditating every morning, to eating cleaner, being extra gentle to myself in this once again new chapter of my life, being active in a calm way, learning more by reading and really tackling that as it is a thing I absolutely love.

I’m happy that I don’t have to be the same person I was couple of years ago, that would be sad and also impossible. I am happy that I’ve gone through a lot of heartbreak and struggles, because that’s why I am the Me I am right now. What I can do now, is to live my life the way I really want to, not saying I’m sorry in every turn, setting boundaries with what feels right and what wrong and standing with them strong. I know that not all of my decisions will make some people in my life happy, but I have to put myself first and think of my own wellbeing as my number one goal. Because when I feel good with myself, I am able to be more to others and to this world.

You’ll be seeing this new challenging chapter here too, hope you’ll enjoy it as much as I do.

PMA ❤

29 Days Of Gratitude – Day 17

No filters whatsoever!

No filters whatsoever!

What up the most beautiful sunset in a looooooong time! Definite candidate for the spot of things today that I’m the most grateful for.

I’m going to do a little list of things, because that feels the best today.

Me feeling a lot better, waking up with a positive mind.

Feeling also that yesterdays run had been good, the little tiredness in my body felt great.

Finding new amazing music and sharing it with friends. And obviously jamming to it publicly :).

Feeling accomplished at work.

Getting a smile from a stranger.

Reading super interesting articles.

Getting feedback from something that was important to me and that I forgot to triple check before sending it forward. Be grateful for the mistakes you’ve made.

Having friends saying their honest opinion about certain things you need a little reality check at times… Love this. It’s about the honesty.

For making the most delicious salad for lunch, winning!

So more PMA, LOVE and SMILES! ❤

29 Days Of Gratitude – Day 15

Reminder to all of us <3

Reminder to all of us!

My challenge got a bit paused for some time, but I’m back. And today was a great day to do a little come back.

I was definitely reminded about how amazing my life is and how blessed I am to have the people in it that I do. We all need those moments, to realize, just to realize how good it is. To start again from tiny things of positivity and gratitude.

I was back at work for the first day after being at home feeling miserable and confused after my epilepsy seizure. And the feeling, with nerves and worry how they would welcome me back, which obviously was a bit foolish because… I felt so loved and welcome. I really needed that reminder of how amazing my colleagues are. Thank you!

And how great feeling it was to be back at work, doing what I do and really enjoying it. Maybe we all need a moment at times in our lives where we are ripped from what we love, to realize how important it really is to us. That of course can mean so many different things, but in my case I needed this full stop and rest to realize how much I really love what I do. My wrist my hurt more than all together in the past two weeks but I’ll take that with a tired smile.

What made me super happy today or any day is/was to be able to help someone in someway, just say a nice word or share their joy, sorrow, whatever, or just be polite, something we somehow these days forget too often. Just be polite and say thank you.

I had these amazing moments of random acts of kindness today, by people I just met or some of my dearest friends, new and old. And the way I was in front of those moments and people, made me seriously understand how goddamn lucky I am. I am definitely not alone, I have such a huge safety net of people in my life to catch me if I fall. I’ve had so many years of my life that I truly believed that I was completely alone and that no one really cared about me at all. How wrong was I! And how happy I am to be wrong like that!

Now I am tired, so tired from just being back at my normal life, but I’m tired with a lucky and blessed and self loving smile on my face, because of the people around me and the simple fact that I decided to start believing in good and seeing good in every little moment.

Less is more and love makes everything better ❤ PMA!

29 Days Of Gratitude – Day 1

by Anni Vaara

by Anni Vaara

I thought of doing some kind of small challenge for myself, and somehow in the midst of feeling really down and sad and just challenged in a negative way lately, I decided that a Gratitude Challenge would be the best right now. So here we go, 28 days of gratitude. Every day of February, I’ll write something that I am grateful from that day. Let’s see if I can turn my blues back to all the light and positivity.

Day 1

Today definitely started with all that “Monday Moodiness”… I was grumpy and tired and didn’t understand why I am so aggressive and insecure. I almost fell asleep standing in my bus, talk about all over tiredness.

Most of the day was just not agreeing with me, I struggled hard with all that I did. I even thought that my best friend was mad at me, which she wasn’t, I was just in my funk and thought that everything was about me or my fault.

In my aggressive mood, I went to try to handle some work stuff with a mood, obviously it didn’t go as planned and I felt even more in a funk. But then after trying quite a few times, I decided to try one more time and boom, universe woke me up from my misery. I was encountered by a gentle and positive spirit and got my struggle turned into a positive surprise. First thing of proper gratitude today.

Then after I got dipped back in my funk for a bit, a friend and me were talking and in the end I felt so much better, so boom, second huge moment of gratitude.

And just now, while doing some abs after super long time off from all that kind of stuff, I felt stronger again. I did some last night and now again, and felt that I can do a bit more and that it doesn’t feel that bad. That maybe I’m slowly coming back.

Three good, small but big things of feeling really grateful.

Good start!

PMA ❤